My air sun ignoring another one of my water moons emotional breakdowns
I hope you find someone that is emotionally, intellectually and sexually compatible to you.
anxiety brain: IM GOING TO DIE ALONE AND UNCARED FOR
the other side of my brain which is wearing a hawaiian shirt: [cracks another sparkling water] yeah probably
can ppl like……… stop having a concept of me in their head ……… no object permanence here…..i only exist when im right in front of you….. no memories allowed. thx for understanding.
So I found out a few months ago that wanting to ‘not exist’ or wishing you could ‘just sleep forever’ is also considered suicidal (specifically suicidal idealization). It shocked me cause I used to think that way when I was younger but had previously thought that being suicidal meant explicitly wanting to die.. but it actually involves wanting to not live too.
I think its an important thing to note cause it might allow someone to realize the severity of their condition earlier.
This was the funniest thing to me. Because I was talking to a counselor, and they were like “Are you suicidal?”
“No not really. But sometimes I don’t want to exist though”
“You do know that’s suicidal ideation?”
“…what?”
I wish I kind of knew before. Like honestly, we know so little about mental health.
Yup yup, it’s not normal to want to disappear, or to feel like you don’t shouldn’t be alive. Or like you’d like to opt out of life totally, even if you don’t necessarily want to “die” per se. If you’d really rather not live, that’s suicidality babe.
you know you’ve made progress when you go from ‘i want to sleep forever’ to ‘i want to be in a coma for a few months so that i can accumulate wealth and wake up better off’
Take your anxiety meds with Red Bull to create SLOWFAST, the hot new emotion teens are raving about!
SlowFast™: It Feels Incredibly Bad.
“But wouldn’t they just cancel each other out?”
No.
They are both working so very much and I cannot stop it.
You flirt and kiss and for what??? Sex?????! Love?????? Pathetic.
To level my charisma stat
Ah a gamer, you may pass
hi tonight I’m thinking of all the people who are worse off than they were this time last year. of the people who have gone downhill mentally instead of up and of the people whose lives have gotten worse instead of better.
You may be in a really awful place right now but I am telling you that there is relief ahead. You will be able to breathe again. I know you probably can’t believe that right now, so trust me instead of your own doubts. I love you.
Me flirting:
*stares at your hands and drools a little*
so…. you probably hit hard huh